I hear yuh Buble...

Haven't heard this song forever...
HAD to post this right now.
DIRECTLY relates to my life and how i'm feeling... :(


Note to Self:


Get Boyfriend to mask loneliness...


Or at least a new BFF that LIVES IN THE SAME COUNTRY AS ME!!! ugh! :(




amazing how misunderstood a person can feel, with like 982742983479832748234876 other people in the world...




Anyways:


Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
I'm fine baby, how are you?
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home   <3 <3 <3

Gotta love hate!

DONT BE GRUMPY!!! BY HAPPY YOU GRUMPY PERSON! :( -> :)

Beautiful Me.

Who says your not perfect?
Who says your not beautiful??
I say, you get even more perfect with every imperfection you have.
I say, you're the most beautiful person I have ever seen.
I say, one day, that guy, too, is going to realize what he has been missing out on, and admit it too.

I think I'm beautiful. I think I am perfect... for someone out there. I just haven't crossed paths with them yet!
And when I find "him..?" I'm not just gunna settle. I'm gunna wait until i find HIM!! :)

ughh wow im such a nerd.

grawr

everythings ok, but not. its just different. somehow its not how i want it. but i know i need to make it that way. i just dont know how. gotta be creative.

being a teenager sucks.

feelin good got easier.

When you're stressed or depressed... just like stop and think WHY am i sad or whatev and 99.99999999% of the time it's because of stuff that doesn't matter, like money, clothes, belongings, etc! Just be like.. screw it. And It WILL go away... like seriously focusing on stuff that makes you happy is much better for you and your quality of life! just think... like... will being mad and screaming or throwing something REALLY help me at all? or will just being mad and bitter in general really do ANYTHING except make other people bitter, and the situation bitter.... Cmon. ;)

Lalala

Lalalalalalala life is Wonderful...?
Lalalalalalala life is Whimsicle...?

Live

A combo of life and love.

Swim or be saved?

Feeling so alone. So helpless.
Even with my closest friends and even family, i am awkward.
What's wrong with me?
WHY am i doing this?!?
WHO THE HELL EVEN AM I ANYMORE?!?!?
Honestly... It's a cliche, i know, but i don't know WHO i am.
My personality changes all the time, i am aware.
I can not think before i say.
I studder, I fumble, I trip, I cry, I weird people out.
But why? Why am i this... or THESE person who does this?
Wasn't I normal before??
Was THAT fake too..?  A mirage, a sham..?
Honestly, I can't even remember.
My world is bursting at the seams.
I am lost in the ocean.
no one dares ot pick me up and rescue me, because they are weirded out.
They attempt to.. but then they realise... "Why should I?? the water is only 3 feet deep."
Still i lay there.
Floating in the water.
Hopelessly.
Every now and then, I realise that i just need to build up the strength to lunge my feet down and jump out of the water, but i never do.... why don't i?? IT is SO easy to do. I could even just swim back to shore! it is a bit of distance, but somewhere along the way i would realise that the water is getting shallower and shallower, and eventually stand up.
Well,
Too bad i don't do this.
I just lay there.
In the deep blue.
Worrying about losing the people who aren't even coming to the rescue.
Yet, who am i to blame them... maybe they too realize that i could just stand, or simply swim.
I wait and wait, and ever now and then someone swims up beside me and chats with me for a while, but they never touch me.
They just SWIM on bye, once they realize i am a socially awkward FREAK.
the world is pityless.
But i dont need pity anymore.